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Okay. Hello again its been quite sometime. Er....idk if anyone still reads my blog but I guess it doesn't matter.

Yeap yeap yeap. SPM is over and I'm living life in the fab lane. Lolol. No. I think I feel more lifeless. I guess I kinda expected this this to happen. But lemme talk about life before feeling this lifeless. On Tuesday night, it was the form 5s graduation ball. And for this past few months I've been thinking about my dress. Idk for other girls but its kinda like a big deal to me.( Its your first ball or prom hello who's not excited about it.) I've been searching and searching and searching for dresses online. But I couldn't find one that's affordable. So there's one day where I forgotten how this crazy idea came about. But I guess I never had such crazy idea which is to sew my prom dress. Yes, my own prom dress. Tbh I felt like wasn't a total success but I'm still kinda proud of myself. Although it didn't went according to my plan. But I still manage to wear just one of my master piece to prom.

My original plan was to make like a two piece dress. One top and a maxi skirt. But then I change my mind alot which causes alot of changes from the colour to the length of the skirt. I guess what I learn from this is that, being a fashion designer you really have to be confident in your own design. Other people opinion doesn't really matter because you're the designer and you create your own design and style. You, yourself is what make your own creation unique. Back to the topic, originally my design was a black crop top with off-white long tulle skirt. But when I went shopping for fabric, I saw them selling black tulle and I got kinda excited which lead me to buying five meters of black tulle. I had to change my design after that which is from a black to a white crop top. I wish I should have know before this because what happened was I did my top first and I was all excited and so proud of myself. But later on when my skirt started coming together ( which also went through quite some changes from maxi to midi length)  I felt that the colour combination is kinda weird and it looked more casual. So I ended up not wearing my top to the ball but a black top that I found from my mum's closet. I don't think I wanna write about the whole process. Its gonna take me forever.

I feel like I have lots of stuff to write but its all over my mind. Its not satisfying when things don't go according to your plan. What I mean by this is that, I don't feel that satisfaction when I could only wore the skirt I did to the grad ball but not my top. Yes, my outfit is kinda diff from the others especially with my hair that made me look more mature or should I say auntie and it cost me rm45.ughh. I guess its the process that matters. I did learn alot from this. Especially for now that I'm still considering to take up fashion design for uni, its like I kinda have this small peak through of what will it be like to design and sew clothing? Its a stressful process but at the same time I felt like I'm passionate about it, cuz I'm a first timer in sewing and using a sewing machine. There are alot of mistakes and imperfections in my skirt and top. But what make a better person is from the mistakes they made.

I cant say after this whole "prom dress making" process, I'm sure that I'm gonna study fashion design. Its like you're making a big decision for your lifetime career. And I feel that I need to know more about stuff. I guess I still have some time left. Hopefully:x I admit, I'm so not gan cheong about college. Idk if something is not right with me.

I don't think I have ever wrote such a long post. :OO I think its good to let out my thoughts once in a while. heh. Thats all for now. Ciaos!xx